Dotsie, I actually sent you a PM a few days ago about this - remembering all of our discussions on finding our passion, how I prayed and pondered and begged for my new purpose in life. The answer was always that I am exactly where I'm supposed to be, and when it was time to move into a new purpose, I would know it.

Well, I do know it. Helping my brother right now is exactly what I'm supposed to be doing. It explains the recent "season of hibernation and growth", as if God was preparing me for this. He would have known that I would want to be there for my brother in every way possible. I have new energy, new wisdom, new courage and new serenity - all of which I will need during the next few months as I travel this road with my brother.

There's a song that's been playing in my head - I love the words in the chorus, and whenever I hear it on the radio, it feels like God Himself is aiming that part of the song at me, because it always seems to play when I most need to hear it:

(Trust Me, This is Love, by Tina Arena)

I look at this mountain
So many heartaches wide
I can't help but wonder
Where's the other side

I've got to be honest
I've got my doubts
And your tears are asking me
What's this got to do with love

Darling [I substitute "Father" in there] please, tell me something
To help me through this long dark night

Chorus [I imagine God speaking these words to me]:
When this trouble passes over
You and I will walk away
Knowing that our love
Survives another test of faith
You and I can walk on water
The river rises, we rise above
It may not look that way right now
Trust me baby, this is love

Love isn't easy, I'm torn, I confess
When a heart isn't certain
It's bound to second guess
This love won't forsake us
So dry your tears, I promise you

When this trouble passes over
You and I will walk away
Knowing that our love
Survives another test of faith
You and I can walk on water
The river rises, we rise above
It may not look that way right now
Trust me baby, this is love

Here forever, there's nothing I want more
Our day is coming
And we'll reach that peaceful shore

When this trouble passes over
You and I will walk away
Knowing that our love
Survives another test of faith
You and I can walk on water
The river rises, we rise above
It may not look that way right now
Trust me baby, this is love

One more mountain ain't so wide
Trust me baby this is love