You guys are great.. I don't know if I can solve my problems, but at least I have a sounding board. Well.. If I can last 9 more months... stepson will be out of the house (he can hardly wait and neither can I). My husband NEVER will deal with this.. in fact.. last night when the boy was so rude to me (as he treats his own mom) my husband said that I should have called the kid's bluff.. hey.. it's not MY child and I know that if I had, my husband (despite what he says) would have stood up for his son..He oftimes in front of his son will not comply with me. Bad form. Anyway... It feels good to get things out. Last night I drove around until 5:30 am and found myself at the cemetary where my two incredibly wonderful parents are buried right next to the church.. I just sat there and prayed. I believe they are not there.. they are in heaven together, but it is the only place where I can find peace sometimes and just have a good cry.