Miki, I don't think your too inquisitive. When my father was dying I wanted to know what was going on, where he would be and why the good Lord was taking him at that time in my life. He died in 1987. I bought books about heaven even though I had grown up going to Church.
I too can feel them around me and yes, they do talk to us if we are willing to listen. I love that and am looking forward to being with the whole family again when the time comes.
Like Dotsie and Jawjaw have said its hard to face it now.
Maggie