Oh, Cathi, I found my first birthdays hard too; it was hard after Dad died, harder after Mom died and then excruciating after Gary died because for years Gary and I had been working hard to outdo the other for each birthday (and Christmas). That first birthday (and Christmas) without him were so empty and sad. Even now, I miss his goofy cards and phone calls - and calendars! Don't get me started on the calendars! Sigh. I'm glad you got through your special day okay...Happy birthday, Cathi, and celebrate the life your Daddy gave you, because wherever he is, he's cheering you on and wishing you abundant life.
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When you don't like a thing, change it.
If you can't change it, change the way you think about it.

(Maya Angelou)