Yes, it felt good Dotsie...but it still didn't change the fact that he isn't carrying our name anymore. I'm upset with myself that it upsets me like this. Jeesh... didn't know I could think so shallow. Nothing like another self revelation at my age. ugh. Really helped to vent here, and thanks everbody for being there with me.

Soooo hush thwarted heart, don't let out a sigh
Why he'll always be my boy, yes ... that funny named guy
Little boy kisses, pudgy hands, chocolate smile
Mama holds on too long; let lose and say good-bye.