Last night my dreams were just too vivid. I'd long divorced my beloved husband. Well, for what ever reason(s), he was in this weird dream that my mind decided to entertain. I dreamed that we made mad passionate love. For some reason or another, I couldn't shake the memories of this dream so I discussed it with a friend.

She scared the mess out of me. She said some even more weird stuff like 'that means death' when one dreams of sex with an ex. Well, since I dont believe in that, I excused that theory.

But, what could that mean? The dream was too vivid? This man was horrible to me. I divorced him and loved every moment of doing so. When I counsel with women on their own abuse, I refer to my abusive experiences with him and how I overcame it.

Am I that lonely that I dream of a man, any man..even one that abused me? Does this make me vulnerable enough to open myself back up to this just to have a relationship? This scares me.