Foundhervoice, first of all, I love your user name. It speaks in volumes beyond what you're feeling like right now. As you've probably heard, the pain of divorce is comparable to that of the death of a loved one. I say, since I've experienced both, that the pain from divorce is worse. I say that because at least with a death, you know the rejection is not yours to own; it's simply what we will all do.
What finally helped me through those times was throwing myself into scandalous books! In a way, it was like hiding from my pain...escaping, but why not? The creators of those scandalous stories must have felt some of the same pain and creatively displayed it for some hurt soul to lose themselves in.
If you want some titles, let me know. I still remember them even though it's been many years gone by. However, I still recall the pain and even laughed once I realized who pained me. In his mindset, he too was not worthy of that type of control of my emotions.

You will heal. Prayers to you.

Sugeree