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#144964 - 03/20/08 02:17 AM
My Step Father - Congested Heart Failure
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Things are not going well. The Congested Heart Failure (CHF) is getting worse. His heart is operating at only 15% capacity. He will feel well for a week or so, then down hill, and doc changes medications. Was feeling really good last week, then over the weekend had heartburn like pain, doc says its a side affect of medications, so prescribed another two (2) of which make him dizzy, tired and appetite loss.
Mom says he's afraid to be alone, thus difficult for her to shop and take care of house. When she goes out to run errands, he will call her every 15 minutes and ask where she is. He's having trouble remembering, so she goes w/ him to all appointments. He's afraid, she's afraid that he's afraid, making her very afraid.
We don't want to lose him. We've never been close, so I don't know how to help, and when I do it only angers Mom.
Seems that each medicine prescribed will either work for a while or he will experience nearly every side effect warning.
Told Mom (again) that he needs to retire, she gets angry at me stating he won't, he'd die if he retired. Yet, he can't get around and forgets where he is. The last episode he was in FL on business and in hospital for 8 days. Mom says he'll be fine, then tells me tonight he might have 6 months all in the same conversation.
I don't know how to comfort my mother. We've never been close, she's never been supportive of me, and likes it when I suffer. Also, she never protected from child sexual abuse (2 uncles). So, I don't know how to comfort her b/c I was never comforted as a child.
I don't know what to do.
I know my step-father is very afraid, yet trying to be brave. Mom has to help him walk. She can't afford to finacially retire. Yet, will take early Social Security to help financially.
He's afraid of dying, feels physically and emotionally disoriented. Has begun attending church again, another fear reaction.
Gawd, I just feel awful knowing what his mental thoughts are and that I can't help.
Is there a forum somewhere to ask about CHF?
What can I do?
As I type this, I may ask Mom if she wants me to come to the house and clean while she shops, thus I can keep an eye on step-father. Or, if she gives me a list, I can do her shopping/errands while she sits w/ him.
I'm just lost, sitting here and useless b/c I can't and don't know how else to help.
I don't want to lose my step-father, none of us do.
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#144966 - 03/20/08 02:54 AM
Re: My Step Father - Congested Heart Failure
[Re: yonuh]
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Mustang, I'm holding you in heart and prayers tonight. What an agony you're going through. I hope and pray that you will feel our love and support surrounding you tonight and through this troubling time. Hang in there...and don't give up asking your Mom what you can do to help...offering to clean the house and watch over your stepfather while she goes out to run errands sounds like a great idea - very useful and helpful!
Again, keeping you in heart and prayer throughout the night and coming days...
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When you don't like a thing, change it. If you can't change it, change the way you think about it.
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#144967 - 03/20/08 07:15 AM
Re: My Step Father - Congested Heart Failure
[Re: Eagle Heart]
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Mustang, there are two ways where you might be able to help them out. Medically, it is out of your hand as is often the case in these circumstances. You can only do what is within your ability for your step-Dad's physical comfort. There is, however, another thing which you can do for him which would preoccupy his thoughts and give him peace. You mentioned that he has gone back to Church. Perhaps, you can find him some reading materials with regards to that. There are many which are peacefully reflective, and healing. It might helps towards that element of fear. You can also ask if he would also want to speak to someone from Church.
As for your Mom, helping out with shopping and the house would help greatly. Both of you can perhaps find the comfort you seek under the circumstances. In this case, you can allow conduct to reflect what you want to say.
It is admirable that you continue to reach out to your Mom, Mustang. For that you are blessed and I shall carry all of you in prayer.
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#144969 - 03/22/08 04:37 PM
Re: My Step Father - Congested Heart Failure
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sounds like your mom is afraid, too... mostly of the uncertainty... the inability to fix things. we sometimes say the darndest things when in situations like yours. we should not be held accountable, because often times it is our way of releasing the anguish and anxiety we are experiencing. pretend you are your mom, and ask yourself what it is that your daughter could do for you that would be most comforting. this is how I started creating a relationship with my mom. i pretended to be her to get a grasp on where she was coming from. having learned more about her life over the past four years made it much easier. i never was a part of our family, but now, of the eight children, she is constantly asking for me. it is amazing... it took me reversing roles and breaking through a whole lot of heart felt hurt - garbage from my family life - to open a door for an honest friendship.
note - my shift keys all of a sudden quit working, so capitalizing is out... as soon as my dh returns, i will have a new keyboard and i will use caps again - sorry
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#144971 - 05/05/08 10:38 PM
Re: My Step Father - Congested Heart Failure
[Re: Anno]
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My step-father is back in the hospital, been in ER since 11 PM last night and checked in at noon today. I'm so worried, frightened, guilt riddent. I prayed that God would take me, I'm an angry useless person; whereas my step-father whose physical heart is failing, his soulful heart is so much more than mine. I prayed for God to take my heart and give it to my step-father. By giving him life, my mysery is gone and he could live and i'd be at peace.
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#144973 - 05/06/08 02:21 AM
Re: My Step Father - Congested Heart Failure
[Re: meredithbead]
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Mustang, one of the hardest things in life to deal with is to helplessly stand by watching the pain and suffering of a loved one. How many times did I bargain with God while at the bedside of my brother...take me, Lord, I'm the one who wants to come "Home"...
It just doesn't work that way. And that can be painful to accept, especially when we watch someone else suffer such pain and misery. You and I are alive because God does still need us - even when we can't see or figure out why or how - but as long as we continue to breathe, it's because we're meant to be here. We each have our story that nobody else can live or write, and we each have our own journey that only we can walk...and we each have our own ending to the story and journey that nobody else can finish for us. It's taken me a lot of loss to come to grips with the unfairness of life and death...or at least come to a grudging acceptance that life simply is not fair to all and that some deaths will never make sense.
My heart grieves with you in this agony...I know what a frightening, excruciating place it is...I'm keeping you and your step-father in heart and prayer.
Edited by Eagle Heart (05/06/08 02:51 AM)
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When you don't like a thing, change it. If you can't change it, change the way you think about it.
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