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#12139 - 09/25/05 08:35 PM
I can barely function...
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Registered: 09/23/05
Posts: 26
Loc: Florida
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My father, who lives with us, is 79 and very ill, and I'm running myself ragged trying to keep up. All I can do is cry. That and laundry and change diapers and get up in the middle of the night to clean up messes, adjust pillows, fans and lights, cook, try to get my Dad to take his pills and eat so he won't be malnourished or sick from the meds on an empty stomach, fill out paperwork to try and get him on the Medicare drug plan, vaccum, get my husband to put Mineral Ice on my back, and then go to work at my regular job (which may not last much longer given the mistakes I've been making due to being distracted and the fact that business is slow).
I love my Dad very much and I don't want to lose him, but it hurts me terribly to see him suffer, so I'm torn between hoping he won't have to suffer long and not being anything like ready to let him go.
I cry alot, but I don't let him see or hear. I hide away, have a bout of it, and then go back smiling and keeping it out of my voice. He doesn't want to be a burden and would feel even worse if he knew.
My brother lives a 1000 miles away and was No Help Whatsoever when our mother was ill and dying, or our grandmother. I lost them both 12 and 13 years ago respectively. I took care of them both for a while, but finally had to put Grandma in a home for the last six months of her life because I couldn't manage her and my mother at the same time. Grandma was really out of it towards the end, abusive and infantile at the same time. And she weighed 200 pounds until she started refusing to eat. I won't beg for my brother's help, and really the only thing he could do for me is send money, especially if I get laid off, and he's been doing that a little.
That is, I have to send him receipts for Rx's and such and then my sister-in-law sends a check every once is a while for half of that. If my brother writes a check it'll be for less than half.
I don't really have a question. I guess I just needed to get this off my chest. I can't even read right now because everything's blurry from the tears. I'm a touch typist.
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#12143 - 09/28/05 07:30 AM
Re: I can barely function...
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Registered: 08/24/05
Posts: 31
Loc: Rochester , Washington
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Hi Flo,
With everyone else, I would have to agree, you need some repite. If you are filling out the medicaid then you surely could apply for a visiting nurse. I don't know if they would come at night though, which is obviously where your problem lies.
Is your father having a hard time sleeping at night?
It is a good idea to break this whole situation down into little problems (although this might depress you a bit) And work at solving the toughest, or maybe one big one. With any problem there are lots of aspects, we tend to see it as one big problem. If there are several small solutions that will make the situation better, that would be great,and might give you some relief.
Please keep us posted on how things are going!
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#12144 - 09/27/05 08:11 PM
Re: I can barely function...
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Registered: 09/23/05
Posts: 26
Loc: Florida
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Thank you all for your replies and suggestions. I'm currently working on stopping feeling sorry for myself and starting to tackle the problems one by one. Dad is better today. I have the forms to fill out for the Rx drug benefit. Then I'm going to start finding out who and where to call for more help. It's been difficult. I've been, I think, partly paralized by fear. Fear of losing Dad, even though that is inevitable and I'm not a child. But I'm afraid I've been acting like one.
What's really funny is, I'm normally a take charge kind of person, the kind of person other people turn to when they need help. And I've worked in positions of responsibility where I had to manage up to 150 other people, and I did fine. But this... has thrown me for a loop. This is my Dad. So it's been really hard. But I am trying to pull myself together.
Thank you again for all your kind thoughts and words. They are much appreciated.
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#12145 - 09/28/05 12:12 AM
Re: I can barely function...
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Registered: 09/23/05
Posts: 33
Loc: Northern California
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I will be thinking goods thoughts for you...
Last year we had to take care of my father-in-law. It was really quite the time, he had dementia, and was really difficult. We knew what he needed to keep him as healthy as possible, and safe. He just refused everything.
He kept wandering and falling, and was being hit by every scam artist around. There were numerous car accidents, we had him retested throught the DMV.
He had stacks of mail requesting money from him for donations to places that were scams, and when we discussed this with the local elder abuse. They informed us that the checks were all being sent to the same bank account, but with different names.
We thought that we were the only ones, having an elderly parent going through this. Then, we started sharing this with others, and were so surprised when more than half of the friends we know are having similiar experiences.
Sharing the info with others gave us some good advice, and strength that we were doing the right thing.
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#12146 - 09/28/05 07:09 AM
Re: I can barely function...
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Registered: 08/24/05
Posts: 31
Loc: Rochester , Washington
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quote: Originally posted by Flo Voy: What's really funny is, I'm normally a take charge kind of person, the kind of person other people turn to when they need help. And I've worked in positions of responsibility where I had to manage up to 150 other people, and I did fine. But this... has thrown me for a loop. This is my Dad. So it's been really hard. But I am trying to pull myself together.
It is definatly harder to take charge when it is someone you love so dearly. Currently I am working with a family in Tacoma Washington that is going through the same type of problems you are going through. We wrote out a list of things that needed to be done, to get their mother on medicaid, and what needed to be done for placement. They are doing one task a day, and that is all they can handle, but they are making progress.
We are dealing with my husbands father with Alzheimer's and I am like you. I have cared for many others and have even problem solved for them in regards to problem bahviors, but Dad has thrown us for a loop too! Hang in there, we are all here for support.
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#12148 - 09/29/05 07:46 AM
Re: I can barely function...
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Registered: 01/24/05
Posts: 1550
Loc: Colorado
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God bless you FLo Voy --
You are an angel! I echo what Chatty said, how blessed he is to have you!
danita [ September 29, 2005, 11:32 AM: Message edited by: Danita ]
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