Smilinize,
I loved your story. It was so romantic and you both sound like you were made for each other. How wonderful to have such a relationship. My relationship is good, not romantic - but I have a good husband, good father to our kids, and a decent man. He does not do anything romantic and he hardly speaks, but I know he loves me. We've been through a lot together in our 27 years of marriage.

Lillian,
I have not been in your shoes but I've known many people who have. I'm sorry that you have had your trust in men ruined and that you are hurting. We can't change others, but you can get out of a marriage that is so painful to you. If you truly don't love him, it is not healthy for you to stay there and hate each other. One of you may end up getting hurt physically. I will pray for you and hope that things can turn change to make you happy again.