Wow! Thanks for the support! No, I am sort of hermit like so I can't say I have any girlfriends to lean on. The whole sex thing is too embarassing to share, I think I have some pride issues in that area. After the work thing, I sort of retreated into the safe world of my business and I spend a lot of time in my bedroom with my laptop-away from him once he gets home. I read "The Verbally Abusive Relationship" and also "Ditch that Jerk" which was excellent also.

My Grandmother passed away last year and I have been organizing mountains of stuff for yardsales, ebay etc... They were happily married for 57 years and I think part of the problem my Mother and I have had has been growing up with a wonderful husband/man in our midst. He died in 92. I can't expect any man to be like him but the whole male chauvenist thing seems so caveman like after being around him. It's wierd.

Also, liberal as I am, I pray every day, sometimes many times a day. Sometimes I just meditate on "let go, let god" . God is always a great suggestion.