I haven't posted yet here, because AZ is a very sensitive subject for me.
I think I have an AZ phobia.
As a teenager I worked in old age homes. I think I was too young or too naïve to work with dementia patients, because it has implanted a negative and frightening impression on me to this day. I'm scared to death of AZ; for me and for loved ones. I can't fathom anything worse then loosing ones mind. My mother seems to get more forgetful and confused then I think normal. I don't really know what the first signs of AZ are, but I have been suppressing the reality of this new development with my mom, for fear of finding out the worst.
After following your posts, I sense strength and a positive attitude from so many of you, which I know I have to develop. Especially Renee's phrase "I will remain emotionally detached." I got to try to master that. Oh boy, not sure if I can. I could cry just at the thought of loosing my Mom like that.
Many of you ladies have supported your parents along this way.
I just want to express my utmost respect and sympathies. If I ever should have to deal with a similar situation, hopefully I'll have at least half the strength that you all show.