Its my "weekend" and while I am moving slowly, I do feel ok today emotionally though I am a bit antsy. I am in process of searching for an AWD or 4WD vehicle to get thru winter and beyond. I secured a Home Equity LIne of Credit to cover shortfall on mortgage and bills since I no longer have Dave's income. Thank you all for your kind words of support. I have a lovely journal that beckons but not sure when I will begin. At the beginning of my lonesome journey I suppose-or perhaps those precious days just before Dave passed. I find it difficult to focus on the good memories, they still seem too painful to conjure. Sometimes I can and I am blessed to have had a mere snipet of a dream in which I saw Dave looking fit and well. Perhaps he came to let me know he loves me and he's ok and I must keep on...