Beezer,
So glad you found us. I can personally guarantee that this forum will help you feel less lonely and help you make new friends; it did for me. The grieving process is different for each person, and it takes as long as it takes. People think after the first year, you've pretty much moved on and you're doing all right. Not necessarily so, I'm afraid. You can go for days or even weeks, doing well, not crying your eyes out all the time, even feeling strong. Then wham! out of the blue, you feel so depressed it's hard to put one foot in front of the other. I once went three whole weeks without tears, doing well, I thought. Then found myself in a major meltdown. So, it's okay, it's normal. Finding things to keep yourself occupied with is a good idea though. It really helps. Just don't feel disappointed with yourself for slipping back once in a while; it happens. Come here to the forum and talk to us, we'll always listen and give you a shoulder to cry on, if you need it. And feel free to visit my blog and talk and cry if you want. Talking about our husbands, the problems, the solutions, and how we're doing is very therapeudic. And count me in as a new friend.