You're all right. He plans to come over tonight after he leaves the bar....again.....He really wanted to move into his own place so he could go out drinking whenever he feels like it, then come over to see me at "my" house just to check up on me.

His daughter told me today that she grew up seeing him hit her mother. I didn't know that. No one told me until now. She said in all fairness, though, that he did it when they were both drunk. The poor kid. She and I are getting along much better now. No wonder she's messed up!!

She doesn't want to see me receive the same treatment.

I want the lovely women and the precious grandchildren in my life to see what a healthy woman is like. I want them to see me overcome this obstacle and be a strong healthy woman again.

I look in the mirror and I don't even know who this person is. I've aged about 5 yrs. since I've lived with him this past year.

Thanks to all of you, I'm becoming braver and more confident that I may have a future. He told me he would kill me if I touched his money so I have to find another way to make it, but I'm sure God will open the door to a better paying profession and a whole new life.