Thank you Bluebird, YepThatsMe and Dianne. I'm deeply touched. I'm really trying not to project, but being the realist..it doesn't look good.

I have no choice but to live what I profess to believe and trust God for the future. This is all so magnified so much more I think, because it wasn't but two years ago that I felt the horrible loss of my husband. Loss sucks!! I can't go through that kind of horrible pain again.