Brenda and Bluebird, I've long struggled with that yearning to "go Home", but normally it's not the same as suicidal thinking...unfortunately, it CAN contribute to suicidal thinking when we're immersed in the quicksand and despair of depression...it becomes distorted and entangled in that mangled thinking.

It's critically important to recognize the difference between the normal, natural spiritual yearning (while still being able to function and live a reasonably healthy, happy life), and the unhealthy, dangerous craving for respite, which might come disguised as that yearning to go home.

Heaven is our ultimate Home and goal, but we're here on earth for a reason, and as long as we're still alive, it's because our purpose here isn't finished yet. We have to trust God's timing, that He won't keep us waiting a second longer than absolutely necessary! But in the meantime, we ARE meant - HE wants us to live life, and live it to the fullest...the glory of God is you fully alive! (St Ignatius).

I believe that if someone doesn't know what their purpose for being here is, they can adopt this one while waiting to find out...to love others back to their own lives. Even if that's only through prayer, it's enough for now.