Blue, I applaud your faith and your determination. Only you know your mate and only you know what is in your heart. We can only pray for you and be here to support you.

May God bless you.
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Oh, Blue,
He's cheating on you- you feel cheated on and betrayed so whether it's physical or not it's time to walk away.
My first husband was a sex addict- he was into porno and read swinger magazines and could get from having sex with me to his trash movies -my self esteem was zilch.
Forget your mom- mine told me when I walked out that if she could live with my dad I could live with anyone.
I walked out with my car and my clothes, got yelled at by my lawyer for not fighting for the money.
But I have a life and a wonderful husband of 13 years.
He's still doing that- my ex-he accidently instant message my son on his yahoo name and my son went on his "Adult" profile he had naked pics and wasa married but looking- nice thing to do to wife#2
You have the strength- sometimes being a good little girl doesn't pay

Pattyann, your poor son. What a miserable email that must have been. I'm glad to hear you walked out and it worked for you.

BLUE, I join the other gals in lifting you in prayer. Please remember to look out for yourself. Also, why not join us in some of the other fourms? We'd love to have you.

Blue I agree here with all but especially Dotsie, your postings have been about your troubles but I bet you would have some wonderful and interesting things to add to the posts some of the other women have here. We have all suffered some traumatic even embarrassing situations and have shared them as you have done and have also joined in in reminissing about the good things, kids, pets, even recipes, join us please we are all friends here...

I just have to add something here. Blue, a wife does not compete with another woman. Not for attention, time or affection...ever. That includes emails.

I agree with Chatty, Blue. They don't change their spots. A cheat is a cheat. I just went back and read your original post. I email with a lot of people. Some of them are men. A few of them I don't know from a hole in the wall, but they aren't private conversations and they're not everyday. My husband can read the emails. If he's telling you she "gets him" and she's "easy to get along with," something is rotten in cyberspace. He should not be having an email relationship of that nature with another woman plain and simple. You have a right to be angy. He's trying to turn it around on you to cover his own hide.
Louisa

Blue,

I think internet relationsips are so dangerous because people fall in love with themselves, with their own words and with the person they perceive themselves to be on the inside, the person they would have been had the world not interfered.

But who a person is includes how they change in response to the world so what they are inside is only a portion of who they really are. When you can edit your words and words are all there is, you can be who you really are, or whoever you want to be. It must be very seductive.

From what you have told us, it sounds as if someone is hurting one of God's children, you. And that must hurt God just as if one of our children hurts the other.

I am still praying for you in whatever you do.
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smilinize- your post is so true, I had just stopped in for a second, but had to sign in and let you know that I think that is a large part of his problem as he says that I've tried to change every part of him...

things have been good, but I will not let my radar down, just not being suspicious, if you can understand the difference.