What an honest topic. Experience tells me that midnight madness is always better in the morning. Don't you find that ladies? Being awake in the middle of the night is the pits. I experienced this once during a battle with depression. I made myself get out of bed and read, or do something. Lying there thinking is painful.

I also think so much of these thoughts have to do with hormones. I'm convinced.

Kate, you will be fine because you are taking the time to sort out your life. Remember not to be too hard on yourself (Something I've been accused of in another post. So who am I to talk?)The part that I think is important is doing something now (even if it's one little, teeny, tiny thing) that is preparing you for the future. That alone will give you hope. KEep up the good work. You sound like a lovely mother. Keep loving those teens.