Chatty, I get your email-especially the funny ones you send to sugaree@writing.com. My primary addy was infiltrated by the spammers. I got so sick of clearing hundreds of spam*$##mail before reading my relevant info that I just stopped opening it at all.

Thanks. I know that I'm a survivors! I have had the blessing of living to see that many don't make it to where I have that have been in my situation and even worse. Thank you God. I especially thank Him for placing loving people in my path that, regardless if they knew the details or not, were supportive of me. The final touches of His true Love are being met here in my mature life...the life where I need to pull what has happened into what can make the difference in someone else's life 'map.'

Throughout my life loving people were placed. I am mature enough to recognize the truth that it was Him now that I'm over my anger with Him for letting me endure and for not rescuing me during. Some are still here but many just came in my moment of need and then vanished. I have heard that I do the same but I want to really heal and do it for multitudes of 'us' similar to what Dianne and Lynn have been successful at doing.

Unique, thanks. I'm sure that must have been a trying time in your life. What I got from your experience when I compare it to my own is that 'I' was not the attraction of abuse. When I experienced similar hellraising experiences, my mind just associated them with, 'it must just be me that has deserved people comparible to my father and stepfathers.' You let me know another part of life. It wasn't just me.

Sheree

[ August 10, 2005, 02:53 AM: Message edited by: Sugaree ]