I just want to say hello to everyone...the name is aquamarine, but you may all call me "aqua" for short! I am looking to heal myself, and my inner child from the abuse I have suffered repeatedly, throughout my life. Only the strong, SURVIVE...and I am tired of just existing, and muddling in life...I want to LIVE, LOVE, and LAUGH...and just feel like ME, again.

"The first step toward change is awareness, the second step is acceptance."
-Nathaniel Branden

[ August 04, 2005, 04:41 PM: Message edited by: aquamarine ]

aqua, you've come to the right place. Please stick around. I'm certain there are women here who can encourage you during this time in your life.

Can you tell us a little more about yourself?

sure...I am 45, and basically, I am suffering from "empty pitcher syndrome"~nothing left of myself to offer, and I feel so alone, and feel like a failure even though I KNOW otherwise, and I was diagnosed with severe depression, and anxiety just about 3 years ago...I am engaged for 2 years, and live with my fiance, in Wisconsin. We are both self employed in our respective fields, he is a mechanic, and can do just about anything from farming, to custom fabrication welding...and I have started my own commercial/residential cleaning service 3 months ago...it keeps me busy, and helps pay the bills!
If there's anything else you want to know, just ask!

[ August 04, 2005, 06:23 PM: Message edited by: aquamarine ]

Welcome Aqua,

This will be a great place to get your "pitcher filled"!

You will find many women here who can relate to what you are going through and what you've been through!

I pray that you find deep healing here!

great, big, warm, boomer hugs,
danita

Welcome Aqua. Since I work with battered women the best advice I can offer is this: Abuse is something we experienced but we never let it define who we are or who we will become.

I'm so happy you've found true love! I also hope you can survive winters in WI. Brrrr.....

[ August 04, 2005, 06:47 PM: Message edited by: Dianne ]

Hi Aqua. Welcome to BWS.

Dear Aqua, thank you for giving so much of yourself in your first few posts. I can assure you that you have come to a great place to fill you up with hope and healing. I too was diagnosed with anxiety/depression and I am much recovered. Well, meds help a lot too, as well as friends and faith. You will find that here, too. My birthstone is aquamarine. Such a beautiful image comes to mind with your screen name! Love and Light, Lynn

Wow, all you boomer ladies are AMAZING,to say the least! I'm checking out the site, and I am finding that what I need is all right here...I was searching for a new site to call home, as I got banned 3 days ago from a help/support site for lost/troubled adolesents, by a belligerant fellow 17 yr. old fellow Moderator, so I believe there is a reason I stumbled across this site! AMEN, boomer sisters!

Hi, Aqua. Welcome to the boards! Your pitcher will soon be overflowing.

Donna

Aqua,
Welcome , You have come to the right place and you should read Lynn329 book and check out her web site I have read Lynn's book and highly recomend her book for I have been there with abuse and back . I have learned a lot from Lynn about healing and courage

Welcome Aqua....You'll find strength in your Boomer sisters that will help you to heal and be the happy person you were meant to be...

Nancy50, your comment means so much to me. Thank you. I am rewarded that your found help & inspiration from my book! Aqua, that is outrageous to get banned from a SUPPORT site by a 17 year old hall monitor. You're welcome here, new boomer sister. Love and Light, Lynn

Welcome, Aqua........the Aquamarine is also my birthstone.
All the best to you. It's a wonderful site, so welcome aboard.

Aqua,

Welcome to the board. You will certainly love it here. Lots of wonderful ladies all willing to help you in any way they can. You will learn to laugh here and we'll hopefully help you get your pitcher filled again.

Gald you are here!
Sandpiper

Welcome Aquamarine. Your pitcher feels empty because you were abused by those who were hard and dry. Life is an ocean, and I hope you find what you need, here and elsewhere.

I too welcome you to the Boomer Sisterhood Aqua! Everyone is right - this is the place for support and friendship so you can count on us.....

Aqua,
Your words stopped me in my tracks. I sure recognize the syndrome. Usually guilty of handling sadness/stress (or any number of other emotions, for that matter) through flippancy or even caustic humor, I am reminded that sometimes, if you simply, seriously, reach out you can find real help and comfort.
Ladies, your answers to aqua are truly comforting and inspiring.

Aqua, you are wise to share so deeply early on. We're here for ya girlfriend. too bad you don't live near Meredith. She just hired someone to clean her house and she's loving life! Jsut think about how happy you make the people you work for!

Yah Aqua -- maybe you should use some creative advertising for your business:

For the person in your life who has everything, the gift of time is most precious. Treat (Mom, wife, best friend) to a clean house. Call Aquamarine Housecleaning...

Life is short. Hire a housecleaner, and have some fun!

You can use them if you like

Aqua, welcome to this little wave on the ocean of life. Dip your pitcher in and fill it a little each time you visit. I am saying a prayer that you will no longer feel alone.
chick

Welcome Aqua -

I believe it was Corrie ten Boom who said, "our attitudes are our own" and if she didn't she should have! She was a Dutch woman who was wrongfully imprisoned in a WWII concentration camp; both her father and sister died in the camp. Yet, she came out of the darkness into the light and spent the rest of her life "tramping for the Lord" as she liked to say. Remarkable woman, incredible story.

But then remarkable women always have incredible stories, don't we?! ggg --- because I don't know how to do those cute little smiley faces...

Welcome, and again I say welcome! You're in great company here...these forums are FULL of incredible women.

Welcome to BW, Aqua. I finally have someone else here from WI. We have two things in common. You are in the right place. Just hang in there.

Welcome to our forum Aquamarine! We are happy you have joined us. You will find the warmest hearts in this room.

Teresa

Yuhoooo....Aqua! Welcome hun.

As said before, search no more, we've love to share, and honey we care.

Well I'll be darn...I'm a poet! Meredithhhhh...did you see that? hm?

Welcome Aqua. You've come to the right place.

JJ

Hey Aqua,
Welcome. Both of my parents are from Wisconsin and I have an aunt and some cousinns still there.

The Boomer women are here to help and to heal!

I know they helped me when I needed it.

JJ, I think you should leave the poetry to Meredith! You are the funny one... Remember?

[ August 12, 2005, 11:28 AM: Message edited by: TVC15 ]

Is the corollary to this that I shouldn't tell any jokes??

Don't you dare stop telling jokes Meredith!

Sometimes I need to shut my mouth!

I take it back...JJ go ahead and write your (ahem, cough..cough... wonderful poetry!

Welcome to the boomer women forum, Aqua. What a pretty sounding name.

You've shared with us, and found that we're open and giving of each other. Feel safe with us. We're here for you.

I hope you find the peace and comfort you are looking for.

Hello Aqua! I love your call name!
I'm sorry for the abuse you've encountered and suffered in life. But I do agree with Dianne. Never let circumstances define you. You are special no matter what happens to you. And there is always hope for a better future.

You've come to the right place. I'm sorry I didn't post sooner, been mighty busy. But I'll have you on my prayer list. I do pray you find hope, inspiration, and courage to go on. This forum is a very special place and I pray you enjoy sharing here.

Remember you are not alone. You are brave to share your troubles.

Remember, after the rain comes the rainbow.

I wish you success with all your endevours. Blessings and best wishes for a happy and prosperous life.