Nienna,

I am so sorry that you are in this position right now. I can't imagine what you must be feeling, so distant from your family and friends. And then to be in a different country where values might be contrary to your upbringing. You must feel so terribly alone...

You have come to a good place, where the women are eager to help as much as they can...Is there anyone at all to whom you could talk ? Someone from your own country? And like Brenda said, someone of your own faith? Or do you feel you have "broken" too many rules? I am thinking that you could contact ANY church nearby, and they might have the rescoures to put you in touch with someone who could help. It's good to talk to us, but we can't replace a flesh and blood, face to face person. One who could actually touch you to give you courage.....

I will be thinking of you...

Searcher