Hi , I'm new in this forum. Don't know if my topic is aceptable but I'm going through a rough time in my relationship right now and feel so alone in this foreign country. I am so unhappy and depressed in this relationship but i do not want to give it up just yet.. my partner cheated on me and i feel so betrayed after all the sacrifices I felt I have done for "us" by leaving everyone i know and love to be in this country with him. I come from a conservative family background where staying with partners before marriage is taboo. I think I've broken every possible rule and custom there is in my society to be with him only to find out that this is how he repays my sacrfices. I'm devastated. He tells me that he wants to be with me still, that it is a moment of weakness but i cannot help but become suspicious ( which I never was before this!) about him sneaking behind my back. I want to work this out but it is so hard i cannot help but cry everyday. I cannot tell him because he will get defensive and that's not what I want.I want to work this out but don't know how to not constantly be in this depressive mood. I spend most nights alone because he works, so that worsens it even more. I do not have the courage to walk away because I love him too much. There is nothing worse than being lied to, nothing more damaging to a relationship than when your partner lies to you. I do not know if i can ever trust him again but I want to.