Word association triggers all sort of emotions. But that's life.
Probably the best thing you can do is write through your pain.
That way your pain is being released. I've found writing is a wonderful release. We understand. Many of us have been and are
going through tons of grief. We've got each other. Thank God.
Prayers and blessings,
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