sorry i missed this chat as i though it was about something else. Id agree with everything dancer and princess wrote to you in last two post.

in response to asking are you the onlie one t be treated like this in adulthood mamma red said

"easy peezy to get pulled into the same behavior when emotion is involved, especially when there is a part of us hoping that each time it will be different".

its the last bit keep hoping that it be diffrent AND trying to get loved from someone who can't wont show us loveing behaviour.

your an adult now and as much as you had no choice as a child you do now. Stop letting them hurt you the way you do, the situasion won't change nor will they untill much much work is done (if ever)and i say that with as much gentilness as i can

however you change it now for yourself.

iv fisicallie removed myself from strange behaving familie and won't call, if the odd occasion tehy call me (like want something or to vent gossip about other familie members) i tell them plz stop becouse if you don't i am putting phone dowen on them. If they continue i say i hanging up now goodbye and then i hang up.

it stops it for good, lol well 6 mounths then they call again and i go through the same thing all over again. I have 6 mounths peace a week of worry or annoyince but i still stick to my guns.

I think you put it like saddling up....and not slidding out the sadle. Sounds like youve started but renaged 0n yourself before. Do the same thing again but do not renage.

and yep it will be lonlie and still hurt despite the abuse but you will fill that with more worthwhile things if your luckie and the pain dose stop.

whish you the best from deepest part of my hart.