Thank you Dotsie.
I had a real good talk with myself last night :-)

I went to the book store which is what I do when I am struggling. Right to the self help section. I find this very helpful and I get out and distracted for a little while.

I am my own worse enemy. I am a "over thinker" and this is part of the problem. What should I do if this happens, but then what if that happens. You get the idea.

I bought a wonderful book called "The Language of Letting Go"
It is written by a lady named Melody Beattie" who also wrote a book titled "Codependent No More"

It's a daily meditation book.

I know that part of my problem is that I am impatient, have to know everything now, and also need help learning to let go of things I have no control over.

In the meantime I received a wonderful card from my son today and a sweet long letter. He told me how much he loved me and thanked me for being there for him.

He said his roomate was released five days ago and went to a recovery centre. He lasted five days and is now back in jail. My son said this was a real wake up call for him.

He's hanging on for dear life to me and my other two are trying to break free. Interesting. His doing this is helping me realize that I haven't lost my daughter.

Also, I'm still reading the book you sent to me and it is really helpful.

Last night at yoga I really concentrated on what I was doing. That is why it is so great, you spend 90 minutes just getting in tune with your body. Not thinking about anything because somehow you can't. This has been a life saver for me. The hot yoga helps your body detox. After only three sessions I feel like a new person and my stress level has come down quite a bit. I encourage everyone to try it as it has huge health benefits.

Kate