you seem to know whats required and have the right type of attitude to it all, as for you feelings I certinlie understand them.

isen't it a sighn of maturitie that we let the other (whomever) go do what they think is best and may be best for them EVEN WHEN IT HURTS. I certinlie woul't critisise you for your feelings, why would you feel any diffrent. However your doing all the right stuff and that talkes volumes about you kate.

Id be resentfull that as much as theirs trouble with your kids it sounds like dad may be comming into their life when all or a lot of the hard work was done, he kinda gets the benifit of the kids but missed all the hard stuff with your son, the addiction and the other kids. You brought them up and now he gets to share them. It dose't seem faire but we both know that the kids be better knowing their dad and perhaps living with him to develop their relashionship. The kids may just want it becouse its shinie and new, who knows.

the opertunitie is their for you to get out of debt, and maybee more, enjoy taking it and rember your raw feelings of today will calm and be southed with time, programe and some positive attitude.

don't beet yourself up for your feelings. I feel proud of you that you got the guts to say hay this is how i am feeling but theis is what i am doing. You don't find that too much in people.

It seems like you got the answeres to your owen delema and perhapps just want some tenderness from the bommer forums, and why not i am sure you get some!