Dancer,
I only have a few moments to be here right now, but will be back later. But I just wanted to acknowledge and express my gratitude for your understanding and caring.

The "situation" is the primary trigger for this roller coastering that I've been doing for the past two years now. It impacts in so many ways. I'm working on distancing my heart and mind from the emotional impact and just let it unfold as it will. There's nothing I can do to fix or alter it, so, as Maya Angelou says, all I can do is change the way I think about it.

I honestly don't know how the Cipralex is working - oh, I think that Cipralex and Lexapro are the same thing, just sold under different names in different countries. Anyway, the first two weeks on Cipralex were noticeably better. Then we upped the dosage, and the response was terrible. Since going back to the half dosage, I haven't been able to feel any difference. I may have to up the dosage to 10mg and just weather that first adjustment period, then decide.

But another consideration is something we've discussed in another thread here. DJ and Mama Red have both spoken at length about adrenal fatigue and after researching it, I'm inclined to lean toward that. All along, I have felt that the depression is not the primary issue, but a response to having to struggle for so long with inexplicably severe and debilitating fatigue. So I'm going to investigate that adrenal fatigue more with my doctor and see if we can finally put a name - and appropriate treatment - to the real underlying problem.

I appreciate your care. Thank you.