Well, Celtic, your earlier post reminded me of the choice to "take a break" and refocus on the "now" of Christmas. So that's what I did.

Celtic, you speak such wisdom when you share your journey and your heart. Whenever grief began to overshadow Christmas, I thought of your reminder that I could physically remove myself from the pain…I was able to walk out of the room, turning away from the loved ones who used to sit in those chairs and then walk back in, focusing on the NEW loved ones sitting there now, including our two grandchildren who brought much laughter and joy back into the house and into our Christmas celebration.

As for the acedia, a very dear friend told me not to spend too much time trying to understand it...this is a person who loves life and celebrates every moment and has taught me so much about just "be-ing without guilt".

So I stopped focusing on the question of acedia and have started (again) refocusing on decluttering my mind of all that angst and just getting on with getting through.