I think the worst suffering comes from constantly trying to run away from the pain; the harder I work to escape or hide from it, the bigger the pain becomes. I'm finding that if I just sit still, face it, feel it, and acknowledge that the sadness is still healing and that it's OKAY to feel sad, the pain subsides and becomes much more manageable. And somehow just opening my mind and heart to feel compassion for my own sadness also opens up space in my heart for those sparks to fit in right alongside of the pain. [/quote]


my mum took ill on christmass day and was dead by boxing day. we weer not talking at the time despite so manie internal alarm bells clanging for me to phone her, i can be to full of pride and stuborn and it cost us both dearlie.

anyway i had this emotional pain and physical pain i thought i was almost having a hart attake at time. I was drainned and slowlie became exousted. Untill one day i sat then lay on my bed acknolaged i missed her and felt not just thought about missing her or thought about the pain but felt it. Of course i cried but got up from that bed some time later lighter less tired and alreadie on the road to recovering from that particulare emotional upset in my life and all i had done to dumb that pain out. I had ran for at lest 6 mounths maybee even more like 1 yr pluss before not being able to run from it anymore. Thank god i gave in in the end as its what i needed

so that both of us eragle, thers gotta be something in it.

so keep going when you can with all the strenth you have when you can..and well worked out that running isen't the answere.