I too am peeking in when I have time, to see how you are. What you are experiencing is grief. Let it out, go ahead and feel that way, if that is how you feel. You have to work through it all. It's the same as if there were a death and you were mourning, in my opinion.

I won't pretend to know your next move, or what it should be, but I will tell you that you are very much cared for here, and we are all lifting you up. Lean on us. We have strong shoulders, my friend.
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Queen JJ
www.queenjawjaw.com
All Things Royal - 2010 and Beyond
Humorist for the NABBW