I am good... I am great!
I have not lost him - he is still with me! It is amazing. I can feel a warmth on my left shoulder... hard to explain, but I get thoughts - clear thoughts. This we didn't have in his last days because one sister was keeping the two of us apart. How long this feeling will last, I hate to ask. I will tell you about the week before and the night he passed. Around 9/27, the sister mentioned above (the one living in my parents' house and caring for him, when he couldn't care for himself), sent an email telling everyone that Daddy wanted to see each of us. This sister used old/unused email addresses for two of us - knowingly. Another sister caught it and forwarded the message to us, but didn't remind the emailing sister of her error... I got news Wednesday eve, and my Thursday was taken....and over the past four years we have had alarms galore... BUT, by then, he had gotten worse, not being able to focus - his body was shutting down. Then Friday, the sister sent out another, saying he really wanted to see each of us (8). Again, she used bad addresses for two of us, adding a third. By that evening he had passed. I got the call at near midnight...
My reaction... I grabbed my walking cane (the one I use for dogs) and took off walking. The night was so wonderful, stars twinkled, moon clear, air crisp, a light fog over the pasture... he picked an absolutely beautiful night... and he walked with me. I know he did. His memorial service was almost perfect.

It would take a book (on its own) to spell out the synchronicity from this past Thurs eve. til Sunday afternoon... not saying it wasn't rough (really rough) at moments, but remembering unexplainable incidents and watching it play out in my mind, afterwards, I just KNOW he was helping me. If it wasn't him, it was something bigger!

Thank you ALL for your thoughts, prayers and concerns. love you gals!