Ariadne, first welcome back; and second, congratulations on your graduate degree! There is nothing wrong with flying solo! How are you putting that degree to work?

I think having reluctance is God's way of saying "No, I have something better for you." Waiting for the "when" is difficult, yet He wants you to grow intrinsicly and spiritually. Even if He does not have a physical man designed to fulfill your heart, there are many activities and people that need you, whether or not you know it now.

You are so much more than you realize. We all are.