Gims, sometimes I wonder if we were symbiotic twins once upon a time...as I was reading through this thread (I'm here all day everyday, yet this is the first time I saw this thread!), the first thought that crossed my mind was "well, my first goal would be to figure out my goals". And then I read your post and laughed right out loud.

Honestly, I'm still stuck in some kind of in-between place. It's not uncomfortable, in fact, it's more like an oasis of respite, so I'm allowing myself to just enjoy it. After all these years of drowning in grief and sadness, it's a relief to feel solid ground beneath my feet and soul!

One thing that I do feel drawn to do is some sort of spiritual retreat. A long spiritual retreat. To reconnect myself to heart, joy, life and to God, and to confront the profound fears that keep me from flying.

There are legitimate reasons that prevent me from making achievable goals that entail outward mobility. So I suppose my first goal should be to accept that at this time the most confining of these circumstances is not within my power to change and to stop wasting all my energy on resenting and resisting that reality. My second goal would be to find peace and reconnection right here-and-now from within the perimeter I'm left with.