Eagle,

Not sure your childlessness is part of your "hunger", but for me it is. I realized long ago that we are ONLY prepared and raised, as little girls, to be mothers. I cannot recall a time in freshman health class that the teacher said, "now girls, a few of you may not become mommys and you also have to be prepared for that as well". No mention of infertility was ever discussed. All I heard was, "Di,you'll make such a great mother". NOT!

We were raised on "first comes love,then comes marriage, then the baby carriage". For me, I've have to continue life as it always was and will be. Most women in the world got a 'break' by having to raise/train/discipline children. Receive unconditional love and affection. I have to continue to fill my life with SOMETHING constantly. It gets old.

Now, during these years where I would have been a grandparent, once again, I have to find something else to do. I'm tired. I went to college for two years (assoc. degree) only because a figured I'd be a mother and the college would not be needed.

It's all I ever wanted...............