"why not make the relationship with your spouse...your passion".

Smile, Dotsie, and Di, I needed to hear all of that too. My hubby is in the same state of depletion..."worn out" by my insatiable hunger (and searching) for whatever it is that will finally fill that emptiness. In all honesty, I'm not entirely sure we'll survive intact. I think the only way is for me to admit that my emptiness may never be filled to my satisfaction and to stop trying to fill myself and start trying to fill "us", our couple-ship and marriage. It's a different focus, which requires a different attitude and set of behaviours/responses. I'm struggling against old habits, but determined to put as much effort into repairing us as I've done trying to fill my own cup all these years.

Di, you're not alone. I'm so there.