Ohhhh, Women!

We are such friends here aren't we? I feel cheated not to able to spend more time on here..Feel like the job is the lesser of the important things and is crowding out my time with all of you.

Eagle, I, too feel those blessings are just multiplying and thank you for thinking of it..I love it that you heard your mom so clearly. Do you feel her spirit is always with you or just sometimes?

Vi - you are such a dear - It helps me to know that others feel their lost ones are still with us. I have not been able to "feel" my Nichole since moving, but also I have been trying to let her rest - so maybe it's me not her.

Thanx Avalon - Sam and I have had to go through a lot together, and I think in some ways , this has caused our special relationship - tho' I can't imagine my Sam being any different than he is today - and I am eternally grateful for just the sight of him. He has always been the one to bring light to a heavy situation - imitating people with his "voices", and just general boy stunts...Saving the day - that's Sam.

NHJackie - Surely it was your father who put his hand on your shoulder - did you actually feel a weight? And I'm glad you are able now to begin to enjoy your holidays - it sure is hard, huh?

Thank you so much Yepthatsme - I'm so glad I was able to relate what I was seeing and feeling - that makes me REALLY happy!!!

Dotsie, when you tell me that you think I should write, It makes me want to take pen to paper this instant! You'll never know how much those words mean to me - and others who have encouraged me also. I feel like I have supporters here, and feel so much more confident to try this ...

You know, almost everbody loves Sam - he is just such a likeable fellow - and he is a natural caregiver - always trying make things better for someone. I am really blessed to have Sam.

I hope our Nichole was with us - these are places she would have had a hard time visiting in her life, and now Sam and I take her ashes with us on our little trips. We have a small urn and it goes in my purse - so we say "Don't forget Nichole!! We spread a tiny amount her ashes whenever we make a special trip so that she is able to have been there too. When we get down to the last of them, we'll keep the last urn full. I do try to stay focused on the blessings, but I also stilll miss her so terribly. But I know that this will calm in time and as others have said, they are always with us...

Blessings to all

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