Meredith and Dotsie made such perfect comments I almost didn't post but decided this needed to be said if only for me. I was brought up Catholic and attended school plus catacisim classes for 12 years. But I had been terribly disalusioned many years earlier at age 11 when in the choir loft while preparing for a solo the priest placed his hands on my breasts while telling me what a beautiful child of God I was. I expected any minute for lightning to come down and smite hit dead, but it never did and from that day forward I had no belief or faith in religion. As you may all remember ashile back I found a new church to attend and began to feel good about religion and the people around me, then I began to feel estranged when I was NOT a couple. All that matters to this bunch is family and marriage. The just dump together the rest of us, the widowers, elderly, divorced etc. in a pile and we are pretty much left to fend for ourselves. You see that clearly after several months. Now I live in the city that never sleeps and am a nightowl. I'm up and out at midnight roaming around, why not I can't sleep and everything here is open 24/7. I stopped going to that church several months ago, I was so discusted but they were adding a new addition and so one night about 12:20 AM I took a ride to go and get a sausage crousant at Jack In The Box and took a ride past the churchs huge parking area. I saw a couple of cars parked near a rear entranced and being the noisy (ex security)person I am, I drove up behind them, lights off and then turned on my brights, doors locked, hand on my cell phone to call 911 and low and behold, two heads popped up.....It was the head Minister and a woman I recognized as the wife of another Minister. I doubt they were praying in the position I caught them in. I immediately turned off my lights and drove away in silence. Shocked and yet somehow not surprised. I am friends with many many people most professing to be Christians and yet showing no mercy or compassion to anyone but themselves. I now worship my God alone at sunrise at the edge of the desert or under the stars on my back porch or wherever I happen to be when the feeling makes me want to talk to God. I do not nor will I ever trust man again. I am my own church and God dwells within me. If a person feels that, why do they need some building or some so called man of God to instill that in them? My Bible is my religions training now and I read it faithfully. Dianne, just believe and stay the good person you are and call yourself a Christian if you need to but I am a child of God and behave as one in all things and thats enough for me. Hopefully it's enough for him as well...