Dotsie - You could never PRY

Yes, we talk about Robert all the time - Ashley was his best friend and he loved her dearly -- i know he's very pleased to see her and Travis together

Ashley feels like I do -- she sees/feels Robert everywhere so they talk about him all the time. Travis will remember this and that when we're all together -- but they avoid talking about his death -- that's when Travis - and his dad - go deep within themselves - to a place I'd be afraid to follow. That's when I feel soooooo helpless !!

so I'm not sure where Travis is "at" about that subject. He feels he should have protected Robert somehow -- like he should have known that he was going to do this. I told him the other night that I truly believed we were all "blocked" from picking up on it -- that this was truly God's will that night and there was nothing ANY of us could have done -- Ashley and Colleen almost rode by the house and at the last minute went a completely different way -- Travis had spent the whole night before playing Nintendo with him and not picked up on anything wrong -- Dwight NEVER goes out on his bike at night -- yet that night he did -- and ME ??? there were SOOOoooo many things that I should have picked up on -- that I picked up on night after night after night in the past ------- but none of us did that night.

I know an awful lot of people that lost loved ones in 2001 -- we lost my brother in law and my sister in law and Robert all in the month of August. And others have said the same thing to me -- it happened so quickly -- they weren't sick or they just passed in their sleep --

I know it may sound silly to some -- but I truly do believe that God called his angels home early that year - knowing that September 11th was just around the corner ----- he was going to need some extra help with 3000 + souls heading his way !!

So I choose to believe that my husbands brother and sister stood there in the door and said -- come on Rob -- it's time to go home -- there's work to be done -- and he wasn't alone