I have forced myself to attend Mass every week during lent - feeling much like you do Dotsie - what am I getting out of this??? and of course just as my mind starts to wonder the priests whole sermon is "You are not here for you!!!!" every word out of his mouth was what I was thinking - don't like the music - don't care for this priest etc......... The point was - stop being so me me me!! It really made me think - But I still think somehow we should be able to have it both ways!!! Is that selfish!! This is when I get all confused about my faith - I want to be almost brought to tears by the music or the sermon and that does not happen that often!!! I want to feel my faith when I am in Gods house!!