Dotsie,

I am so happy that you posted this. I am in a valley, too. This is my third sunday of no mass, as well. I don't know why. I keep telling myself I "should" want to go and asking myself "what the heck is wrong with you?" My husband, who has never been much for going to church noticed it the other day. He said, "Gee Honey, you haven't been to mass in a while, is everything okay?" I just nastily replied, "Gee, never thought you much cared one way or the other." He dropped the subject. Of course, I did just move here and I could use that as a good excuse, but I know in my heart that is just an excuse. If I wanted to I would be there. I read my Bible, do devotionals several times a week and still pray. I ask God to forgive me for not worshipping in the "traditional" manner right now. Don't really know what else to do. I have met no one here I can really discuss this with and when I talked with my old friends from my former church, they just say "go, anyway!" But I feel that is a fraud. I should WANT to be there!! Maybe some of the kind ladies here at BWS have the right words to explain what is happening. Thanks for caring.