Thanks JawJaw
I appreciate it. I really try to stay tough but sometimes it gets me . Two years ago when my ohter son (Morgan's identical twin brother) got back from Irag he went on a drinking spree (he was depressed) becasue they decommisoned his ship and was really upset and took his brand new truck and hit a tree going 60 miles an hour. He was not drunk at the time, but called Morgan (the one in treatment) and told him he was going to do it Morgan heard the whole thing the crash the rolling of the truck the horn honking and finally 15 minutes klater the police picked up the cell phone and asked Morgan who the truck belonged to Levi had crawwled from the wreckaged to a store . Morgan hasn't been okay since. WE all were traumatized but I really think he was the most wiht his brother being 2,000 miles away in California . He felt really helpless and angry. When Levi finally got back from the Navy they are close but Morgan started using about that time