Eagleheart, thank you. I mean that. I feel like a silly teenager in an old lady´s clothing. Yet I am not..which I think you can see. I am serious about my relationship, as we both are, and its been very difficult to share. I am so afraid of being dismissed and laughed at. My life´s decisions have been taken with much thought..well, most of them...but I am stumped now. Really stumped. Thank you for "thinking" and replying..I hope that you can post when you can and will do so. I am still shaking my head and feeling like a fool. Such a fool..but at the time we both thought..why should we give up something so beautiful and that gives us so much..just because it´s not the "normal" thing to do?

Anyhooo...
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