Lady Jane,You must, I think, forgive yourself! You were then, another person than you are now. You had a set of symptoms that everyone understands and you are much better now. It's not your fault.

What I mean was that I, personally, would not be able to put up with such things. It is just me, it's not about anyone else.

Yes, you are not alone, there are many women who had to escape such things as in doing so, you are a survivor, and not a victim anymore.

Please don't take anything out on yourself that resulted from someone taking advantage of you and hurting you! It's not your fault, it's not your fault!

I know that, and so do all the people out there who know there are those into this stuff that will hurt people with it.

I am myself and I have certain things I could not tolerate but it doesn't mean that I haven't been abused, I have. What happened to me was something I had to not blame myself for, and not hate myself for not leaving sooner. So must you.
YOu are a good woman, Lady Jane, and one of my favorites on the forum. You, like I, live and learn.

Please be good to you,
dancer9