I was shocked, Emily, to hear that your husband calls your depression a "hobby!" That is deplorable and I can't stand the thought of someone taking it so lightly that you face this disease! I'm sorry, but he is insensitive and ignorant of any facts to do with this disease and that can cause you further depression! To hear him make light of what you are fighting can only do you harm! I'm sorry you have to listen to such ignorance!

Most of the time, a new med takes about a week to work for me but can take 2 weeks to work fully. You must give it time and hang in as well as possible. Did he give you any ideas as to how to wait as welll as you can until this works? If you get down, write on the forum, try to engage a member in a PM if you have to and I'm sure the women here will come through and be there for you! Just look forward, the medication will "dig you out," and you will look back on this as a hard time, yes, but as the past. You WILL get this sadness under control, and that is why we take medication. We deserve all the respect ANYONE gets and we are in good company. Some of the greatest writers, politions, performers and others have shared out illness! We are, it has been proved, more likely to be C.E.O.'s than criminals or commit suicide! We are gifted and just as good as anyone else!

Remember that you can raise your med's as often as you need to and only need to call your doctor to do so! I have had to take a higher dose when faced with trying times! If your husband is giving you a hard time, it might take a bit more medication to overcome the depression because of his influence, but YOU CAN DO IT.

Please don't let his negativity affect you inside! As I said, I'm here for you as are others who fight depression as you do. If you need more support, please PM me and I'll give you a couple places on line to go for support for this. There are good people out there that understand and you deserve understanding, not anyone making light, or worse, making worse, your feelings!

You are loved. You know that. People need you, you know that too. YOu are worth a happy and depression free life and you will get it, won't you? You bet you will. Sometimes those who are around us have an investment in us staying "down." If that is the case, then they must go, we WILL NOT stay "down," for anyone or anything and make our life miserable, right?

I'm so glad you have gone to the doctor. Stay in close touch by phone to your doctor and let him know your progress. Make him give you good treatment or find a better one, right?

I can't wait until you are not so sad and remember how to smile and even laugh! You WILL, ok?

Please keep writing and tell me how you are doing, ok?
Again, if you need more support, PM me and I'll let you know where there is more support. Try these ladies though, I think they can understand!

Thanks for getting back,
dancer9