Dancer the womans book I just edited and did a lot of rewriting for her sounds similar to your story. You need to write a book about your ordeal and help others to see that there is life after near death, and such intense suffering.
I so admire women like you and Meredith so much. I am such a coward when it comes to pain, and proceedures and I fear them so much...
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