lady Jane, I am amazed. You have come through SO much! You are still coming through it, I see. I could FEEL what you had been through and I felt so bad! I'm so sorry for what has happened to you! You are so, so strong to have come back from that stroke and remind me what a human being can do with their will and belief!
Thank you so, so much for telling your story. I would love to hear more about it. I found it so very compelling and moving!
Again, what can I say? I am amazed at what you have survived and I admire you greatly.
You must have "shaman," status now, certainly!

Thank you so much for sharing. I would, as I said, love to hear any more you might share about your experience. It was so very motivating.

dancer9

I felt that option both times.
dancer9

ladyJane
how truly moving I am glad Dancer started this thread.
Mountain ash

Dancer
To complicate matters I cannot take pain killers.I took anaphylaxis from medication.I do use a TENS machine.Hot wax on my hands.I meditate pray and write away some of the pain.
Mountain ash

I appreciate some of the members of the forum may not be comfortable with this profound topic.
Dancer seems to post topics I find helpful and theraputic.She has gracful manners maybe being a dancer it is in tandem with her skill.
Mountain ash

I'm open to talking more about it all....just ask any questions or anything you'd like me to elaborate on. I was diagnosed with Lupus (SLE) in 1988 and it's felt that was a contributing factor in the stroke because I have a history of blood clots...yuck. The super good news is that I'm also one of the rare people who have had less of the Lupus symptoms as I grow older. All I really have to do is watch my rest, making sure I'm good to myself in that way. So I've been really blessed in the fact that I have less and less of those. I feel better now than I have in years!

Each of you beautiful ladies has been through so much! But I'm sure each of you is now stronger and a better person as a result of the trials you've overcome. God bless each of you!

I faced a difficult situation (health crisis) which only brought me closer and deeper in my relationship with God. It made me search for His purpose in my life. Now I thank God for the way He's been leading me along the way. And I have been able to help others cope and have hope amidst their trials.

Difficulties, in whatever area they might come, tend to change us. In some cases, the turn if for the negative side, but in many cases, the change is a positive one.
Romans 8:28 is a promise I fully believe in!!!

Thank you, Mountain Ash, but perhaps I should have realized it could bring up some profoundly painful memories.
I'll have to be more careful in the future.

dancer

I'm so very sorry for your pain, Mountain Ash.
Please let me know if i can help with regard to
helping with ideas for the pain.
dancer

When I was 30, I was riding my bike when a truck ran a red light and plowed into me, knocking me and the bike into the air. For a long time after that, I was really angry about the a--hole who ran the light.

When I was 35, my fallopian tube exploded (tubal pregnancy) and I lost 1/3 of my body's blood supply within an hour. I remember seeing myself in the hospital room from above. I saw a turquoise light (further away than a white light? Don't know--) and just knew that I didn't want to go there. I was really angry for a long time about that accident, too. My doctor didn't understand because he said -- we didn't think you would live -- and I was angry about the pain.

When I was 48, I got breast cancer. I was seriously depressed during 11 months of treatment and close to suicidal. At least I wasn't angry.

For whatever it's worth, I think that (for me at least) depression was easier to get over than anger. This, of course, assuming that one doesn't succeed in killing oneself first.

How did it change me? Well, I'm not as angry... And I can "see" a little more than I used to.

And I finally got off my ass and reclaimed the life that I had abandoned.