Faith, Welcome to our site!

I'm coming up to my 4-year anniversary of my Mom's death. Your grief is still so fresh and raw. I remember that first year, it was so terribly lonely and painful.

The most agonizing elements of my grief were the "what if's", the never-ending second guessing of all of our decisions and especially all of the regrets. My Mom seemed to be doing very well, then suddenly got sick and was dead within weeks. It all happened so suddenly that we barely had time to digest everything that was going on. We made quick decisions and in hindsight, we wished we had made different ones. But you do the best you can with what you've got at the time of making those decisions. I've had long chats with my Mom since she died; I sense her love and encouragement to move on, but find it very hard to forgive myself and face forward. I keep trying, but then keep finding myself facing those mistakes again and again.

But I really believe that our Mom's wouldn't want us to second-guess ourselves into such anguish. They are okay now, and we have to forgive and love ourselves back into being okay too.

I hope you find comfort and home here amongst us. We're a good bunch of wise and silly women (well, some of us are silly) who have found a great place to come and be. I hope you make yourself at home here with us.