Hi,
So sorry to hear about all your losses. One lady described it to me that she felt like she was in a fishbowl of grief.
When I lost my father and was having trouble getting through the grief it was suggested that I write letters to him and it felt good. I still cry when I read those letters. When my mother passed one of my friends told me I could join her in being an orphan. I miss them both still. Its been 3 years for mom and 12 with my father.
Maggie