Donette, you suffered a lot of loss in such a short period of time...my heart aches at the thought of you being hit over and over again like that. And there's nothing like guilt, shame and regrets to make it almost impossible to get through that grief unscathed. I'm still healing from my own losses, made more difficult by regrets and guilt. But being here has helped me tremendously, especially to dare to talk with my Mom and ask her for her forgiveness...and in turn, to forgive her, because as much as she loved me, she did also hurt me a lot throughout my lifetime. It's an ongoing dialogue with her, but I'm feeling more serenity than before, so it would seem that there is healing taking place.

I don't know the circumstances that lead you to blame yourself for their deaths, but I hope you can find a way to forgive yourself, and them for dying too soon. My heart aches with you.